wishing something never happen

 It’ve been almost a month, being single. Not being with someone who I’m comfortable. 

In the beginning, I used to not being without her. I used to not contacting her for few weeks. And then…. I missed her, I tried to contacting her. I tried to talk. I tried to met. I do things which make me feel close with her.For the first time, I feel happy, she’s come again to my life. There’s someone who I want to share, even we’re not going back again.But later, until now I realized. There’s something in her which makes me very disappointed.she give up. she give up because she know the reason why I won’t go back, and then she always told the same thing which makes me hates her. she’s not the one. she’s not my mates. If so, she will do anything to get the trust of me and my family. she will do anything to get me back. she will do anything to make me always there for her.“I hope you back. But you’ll never tried to get me back. Even I give you a chance, I tried to meet you and anything. But I think you won’t tried to get back. And it’s a big disappointing of my life with you. I already give u a chance but u didn’t use it.” Thanks god. You open my eyes. You make me realize that she’s not the one