Not again...

Not again...

My nerves are overwhelmed as my heart beats faster than usual. This is a regular occurrence when you’re on my mind. It hits me suddenly, always unexpected, but expected nevertheless. What does this mean? Thoughts swirl around in my head, thoughts I shouldn’t be having about someone like you. I lay next to you. I want to lay closer to you. I want to rest my head on your shoulder and wrap my arms around your arm. But I won’t. I’ll keep the thoughts in my head. We’re friends. Best friends. I look at you differently-literally. I look at you with loving eyes-unconditional. My heart beats fast, fast, fast, I can’t breathe. I feel I am crazy, for the sudden lack of air has made me so. We lay, listening to music in silence that can only be appreciated by the two of us alone. Then it happens to you. You say your lungs feel tight. You spurt out questions in an exasperated tone. What is this? Why is this happening? I laugh. I’m not crazy, I’m not crazy. You feel it too…I knew you did.